Time to be honest...

This last year... well three years have been crazy for me. Made some decisions that have moulded me into what you see now, rightly or wrongly, but I suppose it was and is my destiny.

Death is a serious thing and yet it happens to so many every single day. The affects of losing a loved one cannot be described, you only know when you are there yourself. It changes you and relationships around you. When you see the people that could not be there for you in that hard period, that relationship changes and there is nothing that you can do about it. It doesn't seem to matter that they had a valid excuse or reason as a text costs nothing these days, they come with your price plan and you even get free ones online. My relationships have suffered but only those they proved not to be there. The friendships that have been there have been strengthened and even if it was 'just a text' to say hope all is well and you are in my thoughts those encouraging words were more powerful than you realise and helped me to stay focussed.

In all this God has fed my spirit and kept me involved and working on my passions and my destiny... My path is fulfilled before I have even reached it. Time is just a big 'present' to the ONE who lives outside of time and space so all that has happened, is gonna happen and is happening right now... has already been fulfilled.

I am sure of my happiness and peace and NOTHING will be able to take that away. I will and have come through situations that would make you think it's not gonna happen for me, but I have the faith in knowing if I really want it... it's mine.

Not long ago I wrote a list of I AM... speaking about what I see even if the physical has not manifested in my current time of living and I still stand true to that now.

I AM... all that I want to be and everything that I see...

The mind is so powerful that even if you are 'not well' or imagine voices if you believe it.. it just simply is. No one can tell you any different and that is powerful and also very dangerous is not understood. You can believe in riches and you cause it be by inheritance from the death of a loved one. You can beleive for a partner that gives you everything you need and appears in a person that has to leave a wife and children to be with you. I am learning to be specific...as this power/faith/belief has got me into situations that have caused others pain and this is not my intention.

People will encourage and give advice, good and bad, and you decide if it is for you. How do I do that? Real simple listen to my spirit it's always on point, for some it's God whispering for others it's your gut, but the universe does and always sends messages through people, situations and through your spirit.

There's this email about people being in your life for a reason and season and a lifetime. Even if friends and relationships have been distant or non-existent I have learned something from everyone, it's mind blowing. I am eternally grateful for all that has been shown to me and all that is to come.

I am no longer focussed on people walking in and out of my life as I have an eternal friend that exists within me. That eternal friend has got me when no one else has, this friend has learned to forgive me, has learned to love me, has learned to understand my beauty internally and out, has learned to accept my faults and knows that it is just the way I am at the moment... but that does not mean forever. This friend has faith in me even when my mind sometimes doubts. This friend comforts me in my times of need, keeps me humble with encouraging and supporting words.

To be honest my friend in me connects with you... every time I take in air and breathe out time... my energy feeds you, my words connects with your feelings... I don't intend to hurt but to free you with my honesty. Sometimes it takes time for reality to catch up with the spirit but it really does get there in the end.

In my honesty and my journey I have made some decisions rightly or wrongly but don't ever regret them... this is my destiny and my path... regardless of the decisions I make it will not be taken from me... If it's meant to be this that is exactly what is...

IT WILL BE!!!

YOU WILL BE!!!

There is nothing that can change that... you can fight it... you can even delay it (maybe to the next lifetime who knows) but that LOVE just is

LOVE JUST IS!!!! and when you become ONE with knowing that you find peace, when you become ONE with what just 'IS' you find true fulfilment.

Love is to me not just in an emotion for another person but also for life, lessons we learn, good times we enjoy, EVERYTHING that allows you to exist and function.

Heartache and loss is a part of life, I am still grieving but more rejoicing now and thankful for the gift my grandmother gave me and that still lives on in me.

I am making my own destiny... the one that is already written in my heart, spirit and soul. My heart aches for those who are born into murder, rape, starvation and war, who lives are at risk on a daily basis by violence, drugs and abuse, and yet even in there terror they cry out to the ONE who they believe can give rescue and hope, maybe even in death, perhaps there reward is in the next lifetime and those that afflict and cause harm, there penalty is also in their next existence.

This is my honesty... at this point in my life... I'm calling all those who want to be part of my journey and I yours to be honest and just let it known. I have all the time in the world to embrace real connections but not time at all to waste on false soul/friendship/hater ties... so if your with me then just make a decision to join and if you join with bad intentions I feel sorry for you as Karma is a bitch and my middle name, so I don't worry.... I just focus on being happy.

BLESSINGS

KS x


PS... Don't be scared... you know who you are and I believe that you will get to read this at some point. I am a true friend and I have nothing but LOVE for you and it does not come with terms and conditions x

1. I am happiness
2. I am success
3. I am healthy
4. I am full of positive energy
5. I am an awesome songwriter
6. I am a loving and caring mother
7. I am a daughter to be proud of
8. I am the friend that forgives and comforts you in time of need
9. I am strength
10. I am the person that moves away from soul draining
11. I am the one who detachs herself from anything that kills the spirit
12. I am knowledge
13. I am wisdom
14. I am wealthy
15. I am the wife that is married to the man that deserves nothing but the best
16. I am beauty
17. I am LOVE
18. I am sensual
19. I am comfort
20. I am worthy